After such a crazy week, relaxinn poolside all day :)
Enjoyed the whole beautiful day outside at my step brother’s grad party. Went on the speed boat (almost hit somebody fishing haha), ate a ton of awesome food, and got pretty drunk. Pretty successful if you ask me
I must say, this beautiful weather has really been improving my mood lately. I slipped into such a low for a while and it consumed me fully, and then one day I woke up, took a deep breath, and decided fuck it, I need to live. My plane ticket is finally paid off and I’m looking so so forward to getting away for a bit. It’ll be a really good thing for me. I just feel like I need to move somewhere else or at least travel for an extended period of time, I need a change of scenery and a new atmosphere to take in and feel. I need culture and adventures and I need to feed this insatiable wanderlust. I literally have nothing holding me down anymore and it feels so good, I’ve never felt so free. Taking random day trips once a week is really what keeps me sane. And I’ve been surrounding myself with some of the greatest people who never fail to keep me smiling. I’m so sick of dwelling on all the negative aspects I’m dealing with right now. I just want to take everything one step at a time and try not to overwhelm myself. Fuck, I’m just so happy lately and it feels so good :] I’m so relaxed and laid back and ready to begin the next chapter. There’s a LOT of change coming my way in the next couple months, and instead of fearing what’s going to happen, I’m just going to accept it and go with the flow. After all, that’s what it’s all about isn’t it?